i dunno y i feel the way i feel
now
i really really feel very down
i feel like...
there's no point in studying
there's no point in trying to make frens
no point in building my trust in ppl
no point in opening up to ppl
shldn't count on anyone else
whenever i do
i get let down
when i decide tt i can trust the person
i'll end up being let down
when i think that i can count on someone
it'll end up that i shldn't have
i dunno
i feel like i've be let down too many times
by different ppl n the same ppl
maybe my expectations of them are too high
i dun know.
maybe tts the case
but i feel like i've been let down too many times
this really makes me think of last time
when i did what i did
it was for more or less the same reason
i thought that now, after all tt
i would be stronger
tt i wldn't really matter bout the things anymore
but the sad fact is tt i still get affected
at times like this
i remember the feeling tt lead me to do it
and the covering up of it did help to take my mind off the things
not tt i'll do it again
i'd not only hurt myself but also the one who cares about me
o wells
maybe i'm just too sensitive
maybe i think too much
i dun noe
but all i noe is
i'll try to guard myself
even if it means being a loner
maybe then
i wun be let down anymore
by those whom i supposedly call frens
i guess a better word shld be acquaintance
then hopefully i wun expect things at all
then maybe my heart can take a break
with all the things going on
all the things to do
i feel really tired
all i want is to cry myself to sleep.